Anew

Only 30 minutes to go before the month of August ends.

Can you believe that in a span of one week I entered 40+ posts?

I'm really enjoying this new blog account of mine...

Anyway, when the sun rises tomorrow, it only means a new DAY. And tomorrow is not only a new day but also a new month for all of us. The start of the ber month. And it only means christmas is fast approaching woooohooo!!!

I will start my month with a new layout for my blog.

OYE! I luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuv my new blogskin.

So girlie. So pinky. hahaha

BORED

Sunday is really a boring day. 

Had nothing to do, so I seek the help of my bestfriend... your best friend... everyone's bestfriend.. the cyberspace!

Was trying to find some good online games on the net when i stumbled upon this site. 

http://www.girlsgogames.com/game/ArtPad.html

One can find some cool games.. like music games, make over games, painting games, etc, etc... hmm.. pretty much more of a kid's game. But there are a few that adults can also enjoy. 

I decided to try the game called "ArtPad". I'm not really good in sketching or anything that involves drawing.but because I'm so bored right now I decided to let my creativity out. 

or atleast I tried lol

*giggles*

And Another Thing

What my stupidity brought me:

my collapsed drawer!

the story:
Since I bought my study table, it has become my habit to open my drawer, lift my right/left leg and try to make them rest on it. (I know. Lazy bastards' doing.) So to karma, it got tired and just fell apart in the fucking middle of the night while everyone was sleeping OMG!!!. My heart almost crashed when my leg dropped together with my things. Seeing my things scattered on the floor got me really pissed off. AND ITS ALL BECAUSE OF ME!!!

my things scattered on the floor

*********

THUMBS UP!!

I have a drawer in my wardrobe which I don't really use so I decided to move my things (that were scattered on the floor) there. But to add more misfortune, I pricked myself from cleaning it.

My Late Posts

Yesterday's happenings:

~ at 6 am in the morning, we went to the airpot to fetch my lola who arrived from Canada.

~ we found out that they had a connecting flight from PAL going to Surigao. so we only had a   balik-bayan box to take home with us.

~ I received this pouch full of parcels.  Thank you Lola Au and Auntie Ineng!!! <3

• ipod shuffle
• clinique happy perfume
• lipstick
• eyeshadow

~ I ate hershey's chocolate that was also included in the B-B box.

~ Reformated my laptop. took me 6 hours to finish it due to some errors and  boohoo! some programs are still not functioning. Like the speakers.

Empty

I feel so DEAD today.

I really hate this.

I've gone through this since childhood and I'm so fed up feeling this way. Everyday.

My heart is so vulnerable and so weak when it comes to my mom's nagging issues. She just don't know how much she's been stabbing my whole being with all those injurious words that's been coming out from her mouth. It's like, everytime she sees, hear or even smell something ugly that makes her mad, she's putting all the blame in ME. I know I'm not the perfect daughter and I know that I've done alot (as in alot) of things that can really trigger her temper to blow up. But, the problem with my mom is she doesn't know how to look into details before reacting. She refuses to listen to someone's explanation first before saying anything. She just go berserk all of a sudden.

I'm actually used to it already. I grew up to be my mom's"damping place" for her anger.

I love my mom. She's my life. But I wish that she knows how to take a breather sometimes. Take a break from the all those negative vibes that surround her and just live life without irritation. And I wish that one day, when she nags again, I will never hear my name from her again.Or, I hope that if ever she does mention my name again, its with care and proudness. Not with rage and bitterness lol.

awwww I heart IT too

One Proud Sister

HAPPY GRADUATION DAY TO MY BROTHER!

I'm so proud of him.

ONE

BIG
CLAP

for YOU

BRO!

CONGRATULATIONS!

Gluttony

Tonight, we dine in at Tramway... an eat all you can resto.

You should see me how I ate all those food on my plate.

You'd be like " eww look at her! she's eating like she hasn't tasted any food in her life." lol

...my stomach was sooooo full I couldn't breathe. *sigh*

The menu inside my stomach lol:

• -sweet and sour pork
• -japanese rice
• -braise beef
• -siomai
• -dumpling
• -roasted chicken
• -watermelon
• -ice tea

F*** SHIT!

I think I broke my eardrum.
I put the earplugs of my sisters ipod on my ear and I didnt know that it was on high volume.

then BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!

gawd! I feel like there was an explosion inside my ear!!!

Friends Forever!

June 28, 2006.

My 22nd birthday.

awww oh how missed that moment.

D' Naive Me

ruby c.: gud morning!! may tanong ako

•elay•: oi

•elay•: basta wag math

elay•: hahaha

ruby c.: hahaha amf

ruby c.: 1+1 >.<

ruby c.: ung external hard disk ba e parang flash drive?

•elay•: hahah

•elay•: eka tanong ko ke bob

ruby c.: nalilito kasi ako dun sa 2 e

•elay•: oo parang ganun na din daw yun

•elay•: meron daw external hard disk na ang connector lang usb

•elay•: meron naman daw usb port tpos isasaksak pa sa kuryente

ruby c.: ahhh

ruby c.: so mas magandang gamitin ung external hard disk kesa sa flash drive?

•elay•: uu daw

•elay•: kung size ung pagbabasehan

ruby c.:((

•elay•: hahaha

•elay•: baket???

ruby c.: e kasi flash drive ang nabili ko ang hinahanap ko e external hard disk d ko naman alam na magkaiba pala un

•elay•: wengkwengk wwengk

Someone's Inluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuv

~.~ s!mpLy Me! ~.~: water!

Pınar: ruby duby doooooooooo

~.~ s!mpLy Me! ~.~: :(

Pınar: awww

Pinar: sad face

~.~ s!mpLy Me! ~.~: why did u delete ur facebook account?

Pınar: errrrr

Pınar: cos of my rl bf

Pınar: >>

***************
pfffffffffffffft! what boyfriends can do >.>

The Irony of My Life

There are some things I never expected to happen and yet they still occur in my life. Things that when I think about, my mind can't just seem to stop thinking in finding some answers on how and why did it come to pass my being.

• - I was a sickly person when I was a kid. I grew up to have a fear for needles. I would always get so panicky when those white ladies enter my room with needles on their hand. I would always cry out loud and always resist when they try to hold me. Never did I forsee myself to be on the same boat as them. Wearing a white uniform and having needles as an important tool for my job. Infact a best friend of every Medtechs. And can you believe that I am now the one who's injecting needles to little kids?
• - Math and science are the 2 subjects I hated the most when I was in grade school and high school. They were my worse subjects ever. But stepping my feet in college, I took up and finished a course that is very much related to science. Infact, a high genre of science for that matter. And guess what? I hate it still lol
• - When I was in high school, I was always looking forward to college life. I always dreamed then that I would graduate in time without failing any of my subjects. But when college came, I was wishing that I could turn back the time and be a high school student again. I was failing alot of subjects and the most dreadful part was, I did not graduate on time. I had a miserable college life. psssshhhh..
• - I never liked ballet before. My mom enrolled me to a ballet school but I was too shy to interact with other kids so I quit. Now, I have learned how to appreciate dancing. I even joined some dancing activites back in my high school days and college days.

These are just some occurences in my life that has always been a wonder to me. There are still alot more but lets just keep it hidden ok ;)

Pink Madness

I so EnVy the owner of these pink items..

and OMFG!! a pink monopoly!!

I so WANT 'em all...

Happy Feet

*Luv'in d shoes

I'm ecstatic right now.

Just found Wu Chun's blogsite.

OMG! OMG! OMG!

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/wuchun10cool

He is so cute... awwww I Love Him!

LOVE WILL FIND A WAY

Hotshot

My current addiction.

aChOoOoOo

uh oh!! its starting again T.T

I really hate dusts and chilly season.

I have sinusitis and allergic rhinitis at the same time so its really hard for me to catch a bad cold.

And if I have colds, I get this runny nose... meaning... none stop flowing of fluid from my nose... And it takes me like 1-2 weeks before I recover from it. =/

Ewwwness right >.<

A Church Story

I was watching My Girl (the pinoy version) tonight and there was a scene there where Julian grabbed Jasmin's hand and they went to a church. There Julian gave Jasmin a ring and he told her how much he loved her.

There was a sudden flashback that came through my mind. The same scene. Only the cast wasn't Julian and Jasmin. It was me and my ex. *sigh*

The story:

Our relationship at that time wasn't really good. But still we kept on ignoring it and pretended that everything was fine.... well thats how I see it on my part.

So one day, we have agreed to see each other after school. The atmosphere at that time was so quiet. He took me to a resto then after that we just walked and walked and walked until we explored the entire mall. But still we were both wordless.

I was starting to get annoyed by that so I told him that I wanted to go home and I walked away. He followed me and grabbed my hand and said "please just this once... can you come with me?." He was teary eyed. And honestly I was shocked to see him in that situation. Shocked because all along I thought that he was a tough man and he will not cry easily especially for a girl. I really felt so bad about what I did so I nod and then we were on our way to that place. The place where you will never see him. The place where he refuses to enter. A place where I've always been but not with him.

THE CHURCH...

We attended the last mass. During the mass, he was holding me so tightly. He doesnt wanna let go. At that point, my mind and heart both filled with mixed emotions. Happy...Overwhelmed...It was cloud nine alright. I even thought having a misunderstanding with him is a good thing.

These are the words that he said after the mass... " I LOVE YOU..."

So my night that time ended splendidly... perfect :D

GOALS

Things I need to do:

• Follow up my grades in Feu-MC (ECG dept.)
• Submit my grades from FEU-MC to FEU-IM
• Submit my grades from NCH to FEU-IM
• Complete my certificate of internship
• Get a copy of my "certificate of employment" from my former job
• Apply for a college transcript and diploma
• Continue my application for ________________. :D

I know It Already

i heard it again...

tita glenda: "ang taba mo na!"

my answer: :) (a smile with bitterness.. lol joke!)

MnM's

..that i ate this morning

Oh how I love the colors..

Reasons Why I love babies

(spending time with my little nephew... meet Eli)

Because of their:

playfulness and innocence

*bleah*

yey

FOUND IT!! wooooooooo!!! thank you elay for the help :D

whattaposer 

 

Unplanned

Today, I went to my former school where I went to college. I was suppose to talk to Ma'am Roslyn, my intern coordinator before when I was having my internship. I wanted to clarify somethings to her regarding my credentials but unfortunately she wasn't around.

So, I went to the mall instead to buy somethings. At first I only wanted to buy a flash drive for my files coz i'm planning to reformat my laptop.  But I end up buying a memory card reader and a speaker too. 

Everwhere I go By Katherine Mcphee

It's funny how you think you really know yourself
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly silly me
I should have never listened to a word you said
But I was always giving in to promises
I never should have gone for
I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me
(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was
(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

If you had only told me how you really felt
I could have put my feelings into someone else
But I was busy thinkin' I was where I was supposed to be
Silly silly me
But there was something 'bout you that I couldn't resist
Can't put my finger on it but whatever it is
I never should have stood for it
I know you're no good for me
And that's the way it is

And I want it to be over
I so want it to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me
(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was
(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

I tell myself
Get over you
It's over right
Right thing to do
And just when I thought I was done
You pull me in for another run
I can't take this
I won't take this
I can't do this
I Won't do it
Even if I know in the end somehow it always comes back to you

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me
(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was
(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me
(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was
(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me
(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was
(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

* what an awesome song... I kinda relate to this one

Wrong Date and Time

What I dislike about this site is that, whenever I post something, a different date and time is indicated.

lemme show you...

As you can see to my recent post, the date there is August 25, 2008 when its already the 26th here in my place. While on the other hand, according to Mr. blogspot, the time that I posted my new post is at 4:31 pm when its 7:33 in the morning here.

gosh!

I'm still figuring out how to correct it. In the mean time I just have to bear with that >.>

P.S.

if someone there can help me, I would really appreciate it >.<

Sweet Morning

Morning sunshine!

7:33 AM according to our clock... 

and i'm eating MnM's and Starburst here..sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!

so early right =D

Making Love Out of Nothing At All

I know just how to whisper
and I know just how to cry;
I know just where to find the answers; and I know just how to lie.

I know just how to fake it
and I know just how to scheme;
I know just when to face the truth

And then I know just when to dream.
And I know just where to touch you
and I know just what to prove

I know when to pull you closer
and I know when to let you loose.
And I know the night is fading
and I know that time's gonna fly;
And I'm never gonna tell you ev'rything I've got to tell you

But I know I've got to give it a try.
And I know the roads to riches
and I know the ways to fame;
I know all the rules and then I know how to break them
And I always know the name of the game.
But I don't know how to leave you
and I'll never let you fall;
And I don't know how you do it
making love out of nothing at all.
Making love - out of nothing at all

Making love - out of nothing at all

Making love - out of nothing at all

Making love - out of nothing at all. . . .
Ev'ry time I see you all the rays of the sun
Are streaming through the waves in your hair;
And ev'ry star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes
Like a spotlight.
The beating of my heart is a drum

And it's lost and it's looking for a rhythm like you.
You can take the darkness from the pit of the night
And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright.
I've got to follow it
'cause ev'rything I know

Well
it's nothing 'til I give it to you.
I can make the run or stumble
I can make the final block;
And I can make every tackle
at the sound of the whistle

I can make all the stadiums rock.
I can make tonight forever

Or I can make it disappear by the dawn;
And I can make you every promise
That has ever been made

And I can make all your demons be gone.
With god I'll never gonna make it without you

Do you really want to see me crawl ?

And I never gonna make it like you do

Making love out of nothing at all.
Making love - out of nothing at all . . .
Making love - out of nothing at all . . .
Making love - out of nothing at all . . .

*****************
a beautiful song but at the same time a hurtful one... awww

xoxo

I just simply miss them all.

Home Alone

What a gloomy night =[

I'm stuck here at home... alone =(

Odjing, Mimi, Ai-ai and my lil nephew drove my mom to the airport and Ian is with his friends.

Mom and my aunt, maybe boarded the plane and on their way already.
They'll be gone for 2-4 days.

I'll miss them both huhuhu..

=(

Digital Camera Mania

Our first digital camera. I don't really know what happened to this. I just came home one day and its not functioning anymore =

The second camera that we had. The camera that was wrecked by me...pfffft

Summerof last year when my whole family went to the beach. We were all having fun... swimming and all, when suddenly my right foot was attacked by a CRAMP and dugsh.. I was out of balance and I dipped it into the water. I know stupid me >.> feeling guilty still T.T

This is our new baby. What i love about this camera is I can flip its little LCD hahaha. We bought it last year after destroying the camera above lol. Its actually against my dads will to buy us a another cam after what I did. But what the heck, he loves us too much that he can't say no to his daughters hahaha.. love u papa and thanks again!

One Little Angel

the uber soooooo sooooo cute baby of my friend saih.

I wonder how my future babies will look like if ever I get married and get preggy someday? lol

My World of Fantacy

Dreaming for someone to bring me to wonderland....

Together, build a place

full of bliss and love..

and live happily ever after...

If only it exist

Inside the Room of Your Soul

My soul is:

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.

You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds.

You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think.

Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

by:http://www.blogthings.com

* aww its really me

My Love Life Secret

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

by:http://www.blogthings.com

*Somehow its true..except for the last one.

My Band Name

The Pieces of Panties

* haha funny

Mood Ring

Your Mood Ring is Light Blue

Emotions mixed Unsettled Cool

* my feelings exactly!

Your Power Element is Fire

Your power color: red Your energy: hot Your season: spring Like a fire, you are full of power and light. A born leader, you easily draw people toward you. You are full of courage and usually up for anything dangerous. You have a huge ego and love to be the center of attention. by: http://www.blogthings.com

Mistaken Responsibility

Ai-Ai (my bitchy cousin): " Ma, sabihin ko hanggang 3'oclock lang ung pagpapareserve ng ticket?"

Mommy: " Oo."

Me: "Bakit mommy matutuloy kayo ng Cebu?"

Mommy: "Oo. Hindi ka makakasama kasi walang magbabantay sa mga kapatid mo. Back and forth ang flight namin. Sa Wednesday ng gabi kami uuwi."

Me: "E ikaw Mommy Neneng sasama ka?"

Mommy Neneng (ai-ai's mom): " Sasama na lang daw."

Great just great! What a great thing to start your day.

"...walang magbabantay sa mga kapatid mo.." for me this statement meant " you can't come coz no one will look after your little nephew."

A big part of me was protesting because I felt so responsible for a responsibility that isn't suppose to be mine. Why should I be the one who will be left behind when he have a mom who can take care of him?
Isnt it enough that I'm looking after him during weekdays?
While his mom goes to school and who knows what shes been doing. I mean I know what kind of person she is infront of us and infront of her mom. She can really be a BIG FAKE ASS BITCH grrr!!

The reason why I agree on taking care of that poor baby is because first, because I quit my job so I'll be staying home for awhile. Secondly, because of my aunt (the mom of my bitchy cousin), she's old and I just want to repay all the good things that she has done for our family. And besides she also took care of me when I was young and I love her so much. Third, I also love the baby coz i was there when he was born. And forth, is that my bitchy cousin goes to school and we didn't want her to stop schooling because we don't want my aunt to be disappointed with her and we dont want to her get lonely just because of that bitch.

But lately, its really getting in the way of my personal life. I can't attend some important things that I should be focusing on. Because when my mom tells me to "oh wag ka muna aalis anak kasi walang magbabantay sa bata, aalis din ako ngaun, bukas ka na lang umalis ah..." and she'll say the same words the next day and the next and the next. Of course when my mom requests it I can't do anything about it.

Everything is understandable for me. But this time I feel so angry. Aren't they being biased? I mean isn't it enough that I agreed on sharing my room to her and to look after her baby while she's in school? Haven't they thought that I too wanted to have the chance to come to Cebu and visit my relatives there?

Right now I want to be selfish and tell them to make my cousin skip her classes for 3 days and to look after her baby. I don't care if she misses alot of lessons or something. All I know is I want to come with them.

I'm just so pissed off right now because of her.

SHE's THROWING HER RESPONSIBILITY AT ME!! damn it!!

Umbrella

wow i just noticed, the song that I embedded here coincide the weather in our place right now. hahaha...


umbrella..ella..ella

......

for my first entry...

I saw this one from http://sweetsylvii.tumblr.com/.

I thought t'was interesting and have to try it out..
When I did, pffft another disappointment coz 3 images weren't displayed. And my crush's pic was beheaded omg!! My poor channing tatum...

Dunno what happened and i'm to lazy to start over and repeat everything.

so heres the result....

if you wanna try heres the instructions via everyone:

• Type your answer to the questions into a flickr search
  
• Using only the first page, pick an image
  
• Copy and paste each of the urls in the Mosaic Maker

1. What is your first name?

2. What is your favorite food?

3. What high school did you go to?

4. What is your favorite color?

5. Who is your celebrity crush?

6. What is your favorite drink?

7. What is your dream vacation?

8. What is your favorite dessert?

9. What do you want to do when you grow up?

10. Who/ what do you love most in life?

11. Choose one word that describes you?

12. What is your Flickr name?

enjoy!

Welcome Me!

am back again folks!

well i decided to ditch my old blogspot and make a new one.

Just to start something new.
I just felt that my old blog was too boring and im also dissatisfied with it.

Actually, I have no intention of comming back to blogspot, I was planning to make a new account with tumblr.com. But it didn't turned out well. My plan was to customize it first before I make an entry to it. And what happened was just a disaster. I don't think that site wants to accept any themes from other site. I mean it keeps on declining all my themes and man that really made me mad.

All I want was to beautify my blog so i can be inspired to write more entries huhuhu...

Well, I just hope that this time will be a success and I wish I won't have to leave this again.