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♥

hugh!

Hollywood met Bollywood

It's either slamdog or benjamin button.......

Whoops!

Slamdog swept all the awards.
Kate Winslet grand slammed it.
Beyonce and Hugh hooked up in the stage.
Bollywood ruled it!

hahaha. I'm lovin the Oscars this year.

Shut Up...just Shut Up...shut up!

Tyra Banks didn't mind,
Kim Kardashian didn't mind,
Beyonce didn't mind....

So why should I?!

Ruby Ann! 'wag ka magpataba! ang ganda ng katawan mo, wag mo sirain.

I heard it yet again!

I get it already ok! I gained ALOT of weight since last year. I know that! so stop telling me what I already know and sounding like you're scaring or threatening me 'coz I'm not! I don't care!

But I'd rather to be called as voluptuous not FAT aight?

I may have been skinny for the past 20+ years of existence. And I know that it's shocking for people to see me on a much more extra pounds than I used to be. But this is me now. And I have accepted and embrace what I am today. I'm done with all the tortures of not eating just to maintain the body this one guy wants. And I'm so over with guys who doesn't know how to appreciate my every flaw. I have flushed away all the insecurities that I used to have since childhood. I have come to realize the value of food. I am lucky to have the opportunity to eat more than 3 times a day. God has given me so much and I was too blinded to see and be grateful for it before. But not now. I have learned so much. One is to say thank you for what I have. No matter how big or small that is. And food is one of those.

So please stop wasting your time judging me or commenting about how I look cause it's no use.
Go mind your own business first before jumping into mine. Or better yet, go and look at the mirror and comment to that person you see before you. You might be shaken with who is staring back at you. (a ghost hahaha =P)

TiLT

• My nephew's coming around from a major sickness - THAT CONVULSION SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!!!! we almost lost him! huhuhuhu.... But I'm just super thankful nothing bad happened to him, he's much better now. In fact he's more playful than before :) Love you Eli!!
  

• Playing Hotel 626 - with Elay. we finish the game. so we are no longer scardie cats hahaha. girl! we are so...fearless! =))
  

• rain - the coolness it brings to the air caused an invigorating warmth inside of me. made me smile after having a melancholic afternoon.

• Oz World friendships - Ph and global. I miss playing this game. it changed my life tremendously. I learned to blog because of some friends I met in the game. =D

• Amiga EJ - she converted my oz golds to a real money (Philippine Peso). that's $60 = 2,500 pesos. Through that money, I have a means of treating my brothers to wherever they want to eat.
  

• A Complaint Free World - I really love this idea. I'm trying to stick this on my mind and try to carry it out everyday (without the bracelet of course =/).
  

• Oprah Show - every episode in her show brings such good influence to a lot of people. Including moi!

• Jollibee - for my brothers. via amiga EJ's good deed. They chose chicken joy LMAO! so we bought a bucket meal for the whole fam to eat. I really love it when I see their smiles through the simple actions I make.

• Novena to St. Jude - my 9 Thursdays of novena is almost done. i started attending last January 1 and it will end next week. woooohooo!!! i am so so happy having doing this. just attending the novena multiplies the hopes I have. THANK YOU!

Edit:

i was soooooooooooooooooooo soooooooooooooooo soooooooooooooooo blown away by this text i recieved tonight from elayskiee!

bubie! i bought two bracelets for us! hehe! kaso 2-3 wks pa daw!

that made me jump hahaha. i'm all smiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllleeeeeeeeeee :D until now hahaha.

Thank You Girl!!!!

my own complaint free bracelet

I'm really anxious in doing that complaint free world thing.... unfortunately, i don't know how to get that purple band 'coz i don't have paypal, so, i had to make an alternative.

After the mass in St. Jude, I bought a bracelet. On it are 14 pictures of Jesus, Mama Mary and other known saints. I think wearing it is more difficult than wearing that plain purple band. well, because of the pictures that surround it. It's like having 14 people as a watcher to observe every move I make for 21 days!

I'mma start the challenge tomorrow. but i'm wearing it now hehehe...

do you think i can commit to it? hmmm i wonder how long can i take? hahahaha :D

Confession:

the craziest thing i ever did for 2009 (as of now) is, GOING TO CHURCH WITH AN UNZIPPED ZIPPER ahahaha. well it was basted so i can't do anything about. and since i was running late for the mass/novena, and have no time to change my pants, i dared my self by wearing it ROFL. it was so funny. I kept on putting my bag infront of me so i can cover it. hmmm.. i think no one else has seen it. i hope -.- Lol.

Betsy Johnson

I LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUU!

hahaha...

her designs are the coolest thing ever! i find them classy yet full of fun. Classy in the sense that there's still a twist of 50's, 60's, 70's to it. And at the same time very NOW....

Oh wish I can have just one piece of your clothing. I REALLY DO!!!

Oz Whizzy

People used to say that putting too much time on playing online games is a bad thing. But you know what? it's not. In my case this has been my therapy during my time of gloominess. It helped me to lessen the stress in my life. I was happy with my avatar which also became my alter ego to the cyber world. Cracking up. Giggling. Joking. Fighting. Fishing. I became the person who I couldn't be in real life.

I wanna say thank you to this guys who I befriended with in the game. You guys are the best! Some of you knows what I have been through during those time. And the reason why I chose to play. Though we all are strangers you understood and accepted me. And funny thing is, we became close.

I'm so thrilled till now to have met some of you in person. It led us to become more intact with each other. Infact some of you knows my secrets more than my real life friends.

I miss all the shared laughs we had. I miss the craziness we did. I miss the emoticons we used to express what we feel. I miss the bubble box that pops up when we talk. I miss the clothes we wear. I simply miss YOU and OZ WORLD.

So thank you. I can't wait for the next time we do all this.

Love you guys!

P.S.
Thanks to my amiga EJ (i also met her in oz world xD), I got small provision from converting my OZ gold to Philippine peso =D

Because of that, I had a simple way to make someone happy today. My brothers hahaha. I asked them what they want 'coz I said that I'm gonna be treating them after I get my money from Western Union. They both wanted to eat chicken joy from jollibee (LMAO!), so their wish is my command.

I received 2500. 600 summed up the amount I payed in Jabee. 1000 I gave to my mom. And the rest is mine. =)

All is happy! ^.^

Love : Hurt

I feel you girl! i feel you!

On our way home from my tita's house in Rizal, this heart-rending love story of a girl was airing on love radio last night:

from: ms. my-heart-is-severely-damage-now-i'm-afraid-to-love-again

first. her husband cheated on her. so, she left him. second. she met another guy. he courted her for 3 months. later on, she found out that he is committed to someone else already. and then they broke up. third. she then met another guy. through the net. he visited her here in manila. lived in the same house for a month. during their settlement affair, she learned that he's a heroin user (for 21 years). and then they broke up. forth, she then tried to reconcile with her ex hubby but discovered that he's using a separate cellphone to contact another girl. and then they broke up again.

now she's very much afraid to love again. she doesn't trust men anymore....

*awww... you know what girl?! I agree with the DJ, what happened to you is a learning process. Everyone goes through a hurtful event because of love. every time you get hurt, you become strong. don't see it as a down fall. the right guy will come at the right time. you will know if it's true love when you meet the right person. no blah blah blahs. you'll just know it...

I confess: THAT I COMPLAIN ALOT!

Damn you Meralco!! You're so full of shit!

It's my effin 3rd time to write something and I can't finish a single paragraph b'coz our electricity kept on switching off!! drives me insane!

oopps! did I just complain?
*********

...it takes 21 days to form a new habit...

Today on oprah show, they highlighted an amazing purple band/bracelet that can totally change someones lives. Engraved around it are the words "A Complaint Free World."

The idea of it, is to challenge anyone. who wears it to not make any complaint about anything for 21 days. NOT A SINGLE ONE! If you do, then you gonna have to shift it to your next hand and start the challenge all over. And keep on interchanging and redoing it until you stop whining for the rest of your lives... which is the hardest thing to do! (duh!)

What a great idea! helps you to have no FUSS in your life.

I WANT TO HAVE ONE!!

“Complaining is not to be confused with informing someone of a mistake or deficiency so that it can be put right. And to refrain from complaining doesn’t necessarily mean putting up with bad quality or behavior. There is no ego in telling the waiter your soup is cold and needs to be heated up—if you stick to the facts, which are always neutral. ‘How dare you serve me cold soup…?’ That’s complaining.”

—Eckhart Tolle, “A New Earth”

it rained today. the first for this year.

funny, i was being sentimental about alot of things today. in my mind i converse with God. after awhile it rained.... it got me thinking...

I GOT MY ANSWER! ^.^

PANIC!

...........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

My mind is full of shit. i can't focus. I can't take in whatever it is I'm reading. Everything doesn't seem to penetrate at all.

2 weeks. It's only fucking 2 weeks left!

And I still don't know anything. I have nothing. The motivation and determination isn't there anymore. I seem to loose my desire of achieving my goal.

I started fine. But now I am lost.

God please help me.

Help me get back on tract.
I am in need of your guidance for I am in thirst for knowledge.

Unbelievable what's happening to them now. unbelievable!

Ate ruvian si cathy dimo naman sinasagot yang internet mo gusto kung maki chat sa yo paalis na kami mamaya punta kami sa party nang isang kaibigan nina papa.

-from my cousin cathy in italy

(Lol. her tagalog is so cute.)

awww. sorry dear! i was offline in ym. infact, i wasn't even using the net 'coz i was asleep haha. but i did logged on as soon as i got your message. but, you weren't there anymore =/

sayang! we rarely talk pa naman.

Renewal of Wedding Vows

(Name) and (Name), you are about to make promises of love to one another. These promises declare your continuing love to be a special commitment which will strengthen your lives for whatever situation you may face with the strength and courage of two.

I, N , take you, N , my wife,
to have and to hold
from this day forward;
for better, for worse,
for richer, for poorer,
in sickness and in health,
to love and to cherish,
till death us do part;
according to God's holy law.
and this is my solemn vow.

For a post-Valentine treat, the Good Shepherd Parish Church gave a free Renewal of Wedding Vows for every couple who attended today's mass. it was the sweetest thing ever! aww! from oldies to newly weds... all went infront of the altar to participate.

oi elay! kelan mo kaya sasabihin 'tong mga words na to. wahahahaa :D

Name Game

My gift to myself this valentines day.... answering tags from my friends in FB. -.-

1.YOUR REAL NAME:

Ruby Ann Crystal Colinayo

2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers middle names)
Moralde - Bacolaoloyo

3.NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
*skip* sorry i really can't remember >.<

4.STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
COLru (wrong spelling wrong! it's c.o.l.o.r -.- lol]

5.DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal)
pink huskie [now now where can i find one?]

6.SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born)
Morlde Quezon City

7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The Lavender Water [i feel like Alex Mack]

8.FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Ruyo

9.ROCK STAR NAME:(current pets name, current street name)
warrior yakal

10. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
Miming Yakal [sound stinky]

11.YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Rubizzle [lyk it]

12.YOUR IRAQI.. NAME:(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
RLMOBYAYO [how can i pronounce this? o.O]

13.YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black warrior [now that's gothic!]

14. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume, fav candy)
Victoria Secret Mentos [minty + sweet= relaxing]

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him 'til morning
Without him, I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way, I close my eyes and he has found me

*ever since katie holmes sung this on dawson's creek, i have been inlalalalalalalove with this song. i listen to it whenever i feel like imagining a love story of my own.

Best love note

from OUR DAILY BREAD

* amazing how we can pick up so much from reading... 

same old shit. different day!

P.S. this has nothing to do with V-day...

Friday the 13th

Friday? 13th? hotel 626? seriously!

My brother wanted to play this game last year. ermmm... November 1! haller! HALLOWEEN??!! come on bro!

But today, elay and i tried it. well.. she kinda forced me to. =D

Gave me a hell lot of GOOSEBUMPS..... SCREAMED my throat out!

From every start of every level, both my hands are covering my face ahahaha....
But in every TRY again i get, i kinda got the hang of it and realized that it's not that scary at all. Makes me all jumpy of course because of the sound and the darkness of the background, but at the end of the game I'm like "that's it?" LMAO!

Well, conferencing with elay in YM and talking to her while we both play helps.
Nothing beats a good support of a friend....wooo! gratz to us girl! we did it!!! :D

unexpected...

i had a devastating experience yesterday night.. it was the most horrifying, traumatic episode in my entire life! my heart, soul, mind...everything was shattered....

i was at my brothers room waiting for American idol when my mom told me to watch over my nephew (1 year old). when i finally got him to sleep. i laid beside him while i watch A.I. when he suddenly became restless on his sleep. he was moaning, moving, shuddering like he seem to have fallen for a bad dream or someone tapped him. twice he was in that state. i thought it was the t.v so i hugged him so he won't be disturbed anymore. when suddenly he had this total shock! like someone did a great deal of slapping him. i jumped off from the bed to carry him when he suddenly was shaking and became rigid and he's fists were effin hard closed and his eyes... oh God his eyes... they were moved up near the upper lid. almost hidden!

i was in total blank. for seconds i did not move... i couldn't think straight.. i just stared at him. luckily, my brother was there and shouted at me and i'm back to reality again. i carried him and run as quickly as i could downstairs while i was loudly shouting for my mom for help. when i saw her, i hastily gave him to her and my tears begun to fall. i didn't come to the hospital with them because i was really blown away by his unexpected seizure. (they drove him to the nearest hospital. my brother drove so fast that he made the 10 minutes drive to a 5 minutes one. wow!).

According to the doctors, his temperature was high. like 40+ degrees high! and suffered a convulsion. They bathed him with a cold water and put some paracetamol in his... butt? ok i don't know the details but the important thing is he's ok now. under observation still 'coz his tempt only drops 38 degrees and still is high.

I am very much traumatized by this experience. i don't know if i could take care of him without any fears of something bad might happen to him again. i have worked in a hospital before, i've seen worse cases. but it's so different when someone is 50/50 in your watch. Much more a baby/angel whom i loved so dearly.

No words can express my gratitude towards God. He really is so gracious.

See, this is why i don't want to be a doctor. i am too weak. my heart could not stand something catastrophic like this. specially when my family is involve. there's just too much emotion....

ThiNgS I LoVe ThuRsDay

• crying my heart out- because this gave me the pleasure of releasing the unwanted feelings that's been coupled in my heart for a long time.
• letting my anger out - a BIG WHEW! what a relief.
• mommy - the reason for my everything. my life. i love you!
• mommy Neneng - my lovley aunt (sister of my mom). my second mom. i love you!
  
• Novena to St. Jude - 8 down 2 to go.
  
• rebelde and untamed beauties - i love fernanda urqillo's (untamed beauties) role. she's so pretty and sexy and fashionable. While I want to have a strong will like Marissa of rebelde.
  
• poem - that i found in the book i borrowed from a friend. very encouraging.
  
• chirping of the birds every morning - it's like God is talking to me and saying "good morning" everytime i wake up. serenity awww..
• kamote and peanuts - cleanses my abdomen hahaha...
• YM-ing with my relatives in Italy - first time! we haven't communicated for a very very long time. it's really nice to connect with them again.
• 40 day challenge of the purpose driven life - i'm on the 10th day. wooohooo!! every day, different lessons. i'm learning so much. very exciting too and motivational.
• daily foods - been eating excessively i have to admit. but hey, why would i deprive myself of the foods God has been giving me. it's an everyday blessing. so i should always be thankful for this because i am not one of those people who eats one or worse zero meal a day.
• kulitan blues with elay - thank you for always letting me bug your cyber life. it's always a laugh whenever we talk online. either in ym, plurk, OzWorld and now on cp. salamat kaibigan hahaha!

stuff and nonsense...

@#$#@%$#%^%$^&%&^%*&% ROFLLMAOLOLWTF!
my night is so full of fun (and dizziness). my friend elay and i have nothing to do for this night so this is what we did....

YM-ing
elay:oi text mo naman ako
elay: sayang naman fone ko
eyecatcher_ruby:
eyecatcher_ruby: wala load
eyecatcher_ruby:
elay:
eyecatcher_ruby: ako ang taong hindi masyado nagloload.
elay: masisira ata fone ko dahil di ginagamit
eyecatcher_ruby: sige d2 at sa cp mo tau mag usap
elay: o tamo nagulat ako sa pag tweet tweet ng fone ko
eyecatcher_ruby:
elay: ay ang cute pala ng alert ko
eyecatcher_ruby: bulaga!
elay: pakinggan mo
eyecatcher_ruby: pano ko naman kay maririnig -.-
You have received 1 file from elay.
babymsgton_y4bmecwv.mp3
elay: ahaha
elay: ganda noh
elay:
eyecatcher_ruby: tweet. parang kaboses mo
elay: woooo
elay: baka ikaw
elay:
eyecatcher_ruby:
eyecatcher_ruby: sa plurk naman tau
elay: sige go
eyecatcher_ruby:
elay: oh ayun na
eyecatcher_ruby: nagreply na ako
elay: nahiihilo na ko
eyecatcher_ruby: ako din
elay: pa mms ng ulam
elay:
eyecatcher_ruby:
eyecatcher_ruby: d pede unli tau d kakayanin
elay: tae nawalan ako signal
elay: lalabas lang ako para magsend ng message
elay:
eyecatcher_ruby:
elay: hala message failed
eyecatcher_ruby: waahaha
eyecatcher_ruby: la na unli
eyecatcher_ruby:
elay: nde noh
elay: 5 days unli ko pakshet
elay: =)
elay: ayan nasend
elay: tinapat ko sa kilikili ko
eyecatcher_ruby: waaaa 5 days! infairness sa taong ala katext.
elay:
elay: i know, right?
elay:
eyecatcher_ruby: ganun talga pag mayaman
elay: nde sobrang naexcite lang ako sa bago kong fone kaya nag unli ako
elay: nakalimutan ko wala nga pala akong katext
elay:
eyecatcher_ruby: hahaha dapat punuin mo muna ung phonebook mo!!!
elay: naku
elay:
elay: isusulat ko sa likod ng upuan ng bus
elay: "WANTED:TEXTMATE"
eyecatcher_ruby: pati sa cr!!
eyecatcher_ruby: mas ok pag cr!
eyecatcher_ruby: sa bus mga manyak makakatext mo
elay:
elay: naalala ko dati
elay: ginawa ko yan sa friend ko
elay:
elay: nagpalit ng sim
eyecatcher_ruby:
eyecatcher_ruby: ay taena. parang kelangan ko ata bumili ng extra sim kung saka sakali
elay:
eyecatcher_ruby: d ko mapigil tawa ko! mali sagot ko
elay:
elay: minus 1!
elay: not following instructions!
eyecatcher_ruby: prinitong kamatis amf!
eyecatcher_ruby:
eyecatcher_ruby: sagot ko naman patis
elay:
elay: hello??
elay: anjan ka pa ba???
elay:
eyecatcher_ruby:
eyecatcher_ruby: nagiisip ako ng isasagot ko baka magkamali na naman ako weh
elay: nyahaha
elay: tinatawanan ako dito kasi para akong baliw
elay: o siya kakain muna kmi
eyecatcher_ruby:
eyecatcher_ruby: cge cge!!

plurk-ing
elaysays bubie, kunwari di tau magkatext at magkausap sa ym. oh plurk naman!

insatiablerubysays

uu sige. kunwari d pa napupudpud mga daliri natin kakatype sa cp at sa keyboard. ge lang.

elaysays teka rereply ako sayo sa ym. wahahaha

insatiablerubysays kakareply ko lang sau sa cp

insatiablerubysays .

elaysays nahihilo na ko, infairness.

insatiablerubysays ako din. allert ng mga daliri natin ah. infairness.

elaysays bubie! message failed!!!

insatiablerubysays hahah check op!

elaysays nde, tinapat ko lang sa kilikili ko nagsend na

insatiablerubysays effective talga yan ebur!

elaysays i know, right? wahahaha

insatiablerubysays ung mata ko ganto na @.@

insatiablerubysays hala mali ang sagot ko sa text na naman!!

elaysays mali mali naman eh! naku!

elaysays elay: piniritong kamatis. nagawa mo na ba yun?

elaysays bubie: type sa cp at pc den watch tv.

elaysays ANU DAW??

insatiablerubysays yoko ng prinitong kamatis. raw na kamatis uu.

insatiablerubysays ah basta t.v. pc cp ako

insatiablerubysays

elaysays wooooo kainan na!

elaysays \

insatiablerubysays

cge brb ka na naman para kumain.

text-ing (cellphone):
both globe + both unli = foolishness
*this got me so LOL after a few messages....
elay: .......nasubukan mo na bang magsawsaw sa prinitong kamatis?
me: ...ayoko ng patis...
*wahahahahahahhaha. i just can't stop myself from laughing!

(all at the same time!!! love it....)

new theme!

"bilangin mo ang mga mabubuting bagay at hindi 'yung mga pangit..."

- may bukas pa

*AMEN.

i was scanning this book that i borrowed from a colleague of mine back in college. as i was flipping through it, a blank laboratory (clinical chemistry form) result form dropped and there was a poem written at the back of it...

tomorrow is a dream
that leads me onward...
tomorrow is a path I've yet to choose,
it's a chance I've yet to take,
a friend I've yet to make,
It's all the talent I have yet to use.

Tomorrow is a dream
that leads me onward,
Always just a step ahead of me.
It's the joy I've yet to know,
The love I've yet to show,
For it's the person I have yet to be.

what a nice way to start my morning. it made me smile. thank you!

*my thoughts exactly!!!!  Y.Y

*got this from http://abbiealmasco.tumblr.com/

Falling in love with the Lord is the greatest romance; searching Him, the greatest adventure; finding HIM, the greatest achievement; and being with HIM, the greatest source of happiness. God said don’t look around because you’ll be impressed. Don’t look down you’ll be depressed; just look to me all the time and you’ll be blessed. The Lord is waiting above to give you His grace and send you His love. Whatever your cross, whatever the pain, God always sends a rainbow after the rain.

Be Blessed Today and Always: God closes doors no man can open & God opens doors no man can close. If you need God to open some doors for you…send this to ten people and if U Obey to the WORD of GOD , U will be blessed

you know what i hate about in watching over a kid? their poop time and sudden urination when you just took off their diapers to change it. ugh!! -.-

cancer lovescope

Saturday and Sunday are your times to sizzle with the Moon in spicy Scorpio heating up your 5th House of Romance. Put aside your cautious and self-protective ways to jump into the action. Don't wait for someone else to take the lead or play hard to get if he or she is what you want. Passion makes you powerfully attractive now.

*yeah right. as if i know how to flirt!

i have this infatuation with a scorpio lately. of course he doesn't know that hahaha... i seldom talk to him though 'coz of some complications lol. and because of this complications, i only get to talk to him during weekends (and sometimes not unfortunately =( ).....wow! i'm impressed.

todays gospel: ...do not use your hands to harm others...

i just did.

i am really really really sorry for myself. Because once again i disappointed ME. I am really really really sorry to God because once again I failed him. I broke my pledge to him. I am really really really sorry to my mom for showing her the bad side of me...I SCREWED UP YET AGAIN!

but i do not regret what i did to you, you BIG BIZNATCH!! not an inch! you deserve it!

i dare not try to hurt others.

so i thought....

but i'm done with all you're drama. i'm so fed up with all your cussing to my family. you're big mistake? imprecating death to my mom and my aunt is a BIG NO NO! do that to me but never ever ever ever to those 2 people i'd give my life to. so what if we share the same blood, same genes, same dna. right now, i don't give a damn!

It's human nature for people to act such a thing. I am human and I am weak. and this night is the most dysfunctional of all. I exploded. My anger dominated. I was out of myself. My eyes were blacken and I snapped! I said things that are very very hurtful (but true! so deal with it!). I used my hands to slap, tweak, hit and smacked her. I got so physical. i beat the hell out of her.

One thing good happened though, is that after my anguish, i felt good somehow. it's like this needle that has been pinned down in my chest for so long is finally out. There is this relief. and I am ok....

see the pc behind me?

since i hid my lappie :P i am now a standby at my brothers' bedroom hahaha... i am so tripping with them everytime i'm feeling blank... i'm making their lives miserable (mwahahahhaha) -evil laugh-

somethings are made to make you go nuts!

i am so sick of people trying to borrow something from me and not give it back in one piece.

I am so freakin mad right now! arggh!! i just found out that some files on my fuckin usb are missing!!! what the heck! those files are so friggin important to me damn it! 

my brother borrowed my usb awhile back. thinkin that my files are secure (because i own it in the first place!) and he only added one file to it, i did not bother checking it... 'til now!! 

i am trying to keep my cool right now 'till i confront him about this. but man! i am so damn shaking at this very moment. i mean every muscles, every cells, every nerves are almost gonna blow up!

ok ruby, inhale... exhale... inhale.. exhale... inhale.. exhale...

me: "i dremt of a snake last night..."

mom: "(naku anak!) you might get married soon!"

me: "huh? how is that possible when i don't even have a bf"

mom: " i also dremt of a snake before i married your dad. i too have no bf that time...."

*eeeeekkk!!! sometimes my mom scares me with her words.

*i scanned these so that my eyes won't go @.@ and zzzzzzzzzz when i read it.

Today's Advice from a Box..

"sorrow is a fruit: God does not make it grow on limbs too weak to bear it."

- victor hugo

* mismo!

thank you ms. garland for this month's forecast. what you said is somewhat true.

I really need alot of confidential advices from people because I do feel like earth is crashing down on me abit lately... i need some spiritual uplift right now T.T

ThInGs i LoVe ThUrsDay

Not being able to blog is like stripping something out from my body...

Before I started this blog, I was a no body when it comes to writing. I mean I'm no pro. I am not saying that I am now. But being able to say and being able to make a remark about what I feel and think, about anything is really a big help in my life.

I noticed that for the past couple of days... weeks... that i have not posted anything, i have been in an unstable situation. Like I am so alone and that I can't confide to anyone. This blog, being a rookie that it is (just like moi!), is like a best friend to me. "Someone" that I can communicate with. I can exhibit my feelings with. Like when I am so pissed off with someone (just like this morning), or when I am in the mood of sharing my secrets, or just be blunt about anything that I can think of. 

It is so damn hard to keep distance from my laptop and not being able to blog. This might be an open diary but still it's different when I am able to express what I feel even through this. Heck, if Edward is addicted to Bella, on my part this is my drug. It's addicting. But in a good way ya know....

"...Be good to yourself; don’t deliberately create guilt or resentment or stress in your life!..."  

-galadarling

So I will be.....

P.S. here are my supplemental thank you's for the week:

• PRC application - well i am just proud of myself that i was able to do this alone. No friends. No family member. ALL ME! (my brother's initial reaction? "there is no backing out now!" hahaha.... right.)

• Novena of St. Jude - no words can express how much this means to me. 6 down, 3 more to go to complete that 9 thursday novena. going.. going... going!

• icing transformation challenge - gala you really do bring out the best on people... 

• the purpose driven life - i dare thee to complete this 40 day challenge stated in the book. i have so many attempts on trying this. i have gone to only 2 chapters everytime. and now that i am doing ITC, i wanna attest myself together with this...

• keeping my room tidy everyday 

have a great week everyone! and keep your day rockin like crazy! ciao!

this morning was a bull....

i went to st. jude with this heaviness in my heart. like i'm gonna explode. yah dig me? but after the mass and novena i was refreshened. i totally feel great...

*when someone ruined your night... having some goofy friends and CHICHARON helps to get you back on your pace... 

for my previous post -----------> this time i'm uber serious.

Comment:

*wtf! i really can't trust myself!!! shameful but hey i am so damn trying reaaaal hard here!! please bear with me.

update: horoscope: "... face your fear..."

LoL! my day is mocking me... yeah yeah.... i admit i hate being alone. much more doing stuff all by myself...

So today, I was able to go and apply at PRC (professional regulation commission). At first it kinda ticked me off 'coz of that effin cedula. i sort of uhm had a hard time looking for one. But all is well after that. oh and i am so glad that there was no heavy line that i have to deal with. whew! thank goodness! Infact, there was 0 line at all hahaha =D

ok BRB again....

icing transformation challenge 2009

So galadarling's icing transformation challenge for 2009 started. I decided to take part on this 28 day event. Basically it's all about changing something in your life. Like the way you dress, excersicing, eating raw, cutting down your usage of computer (oh hello i think that's my call hahaha! right.), etsetera etsetera.

This is really a great idea. I heard Kris Aquino talking about doing things that you don't normally do for like 7 weeks and after that you will see yourself making it a habit. And this challenge is not far from that ideology. 

I listed 10 things I wanted to do for February and hopefully i can get it all done at the end of this month.

1. Review my heart out - of course this is the most important of all. this has been at the top of my list since '09 came. I have gone from not watching t.v to  lessening my computer usage (FCUK! I have said this a million times already and this is really getting on my nerves! daym!)
2. Employ my self made timetable - yush! i made one. hahahaha. i thought making myself a schedule can help me organize things for my review. I'll wake up 3 am and the rest goes on till 11 pm.
3. Clean my room -  hmmm... not being compulsive about this but making things orderly in my room somehow gives joy in my heart. hahaha is that weird?
4. journals - i have 3 so far. 2 written journals and a cyber one (which is this lol). I have a separate journal  for my thank you's, another one for my everyday happenings (like i jot down every proceedings i have done in each day of my friggin life) and this blog to which i post my what-ever-thoughts. I am suppose to blog everyday but because of the board i should hang this for the mean time. And make it up on march.
5. daily bread - uh huh. i am reading this book. i don't care if people think i'm crazy in doing this but i don't care! i want to feed my mind with the words of God. I am really eager to devote on my religious side. and this year is a good start for it.
6. am i being freaky when i say i wanted to beautify myself? - hahahaha -.-
7. eat less - i'm not gonna starve myself ok. but i am so sick and tired of hearing people saying i'm so fat now. i mean i really don't care if i kind of gained weight (from 25ish waist to 32. shit!). but what bugs me is that my clothes are really not that fitting to me anymore. I mean come on!
8. medications/ food supplements - since i dont really eat vegies much and i think i am malnourish hahahah... this is an alternative way to give my body some nurishments.

this 2 are just my additional wants for this month (or year).

9 churches - want to visit 9 churches before the month ends.i overheard my moms friend talking about this and i think this is such a great idea. so...

buy/read "The Red Book" - thank you gala! haha you're such a darling. I just hope I can buy this in Manila. T.T if not then i have to find a way to save some money to buy it in amazon. 

well good luck to me! rock on peeps!